Chocolate world, but.. too fat.

Hello :)

I've just come back from my holidays at the Polish seaside. I've passed a wonderful time there, but I'm also happy that I've returned to Warsaw. During these 2 weeks I have realized some of my dreams !
If you REALLY WANT something, in the end it will happen. Never give up and never stop believing and dreaming. Perhaps for many people, the things that I have had, would not be important, but for me It added a lot of energy and optimism. ( I will write something about it in the next post. You will can win something which correspond at it in the little contest, so don't miss it guys ! )
I took many photos in Tri-City. Today I want to present you just some of them.

~ GDANSK ~

Everyone needs sometimes something sweet.... 
Temptations are stronger than willpower.

Chocolate pancakes with mascarpone cheese with a sauce with cherries on wine.


Milk chocolate with raspberry sorbet with some raspeberries


A classic italian tiramisu and a large cup of latte "Grande Latte"



Here we see (in the depth of photo) also chocolate pancakes but with hot dark chocolate filling and with raspberry mousse 


VERY TRUE :

                                                                            With love

XXX

Paulina

P.S : 

My Dear Friend,
I have learnt a lot for this time. I have learnt to live without You, to do my stuff with no thinking about Your person. Do I feel better ? Well, I feel different. No more sad, like before. I am focused on myself and my future. There's no end and no beginning with You. It's just a continuation, because life goes on. Nothing stops, nothing starts between us. Everything flows like in a river. Am I happy? Well, I am happy because there are my friends around me, there is my family. I am not alone... Physically. But I still miss Your presence next to me. But it's only a longing. We can fight with this feeling. It will not destroy me.
I see a smile on my face. I see the joy. Wish me to stay that way.
Your Friend.

A breath of freshness

Welcome back guys !

8 days of absence is quite a bit.
Sorry about that, but I left Warsaw and I am just in the Tri-City.
For already more than a week, I'm saying hello to Gdynia, Gdansk and Sopot.
Of these three cities I like the most Sopot.
This resort is teeming with life by day and by night.

The day before departure, I had a small party with friends. It was more barbecue party, as it happens in the summer.
We spent a great time, even though the end was a bit... unlucky.
In the evening we went to the shopping mall and I've finished... all... really ALL wet in
the fountain. My friend pushed me there, and for the total, both of us we had problems. Together we were returning home by car with my mom. It was kinda strange, because we're almost 18 and he was really sorry of what he has done to me. And the first time I saw that he really cared and.. it was bizarre.

The situation of the previous post has become different. Maybe better? 

Perhaps worse. I do not know. I only know that because of my holidays  I feel stronger and I rebuilt my vitality. I feel pure.

Maybe it was my goodbye with this friend? Or it was just a begin with him ?

Who really knows ?

You're more "head" than "heart" ?
I told that a head always win... but honestly I don't know the truth answer.

Kiss from Baltic Sea 

xxx

Paulina

This Letter.

My fulifilled and also unfulifilled LOVE,

My Enemy and my Friend, my Lover.

My Everything that You were, that You are and that You will be.

And all that You will NEVER ever be for me...

 ~♥~

Do you see how poetically I'm talking about You ? Like never before. 

Always slanders, always teasing, always profane. And it was for what ? 

Today I want to write You a letter. The letter that will never be read by You, because You're not worth it are You ?

Worth an ounce of words that will flow here. Why I am tempted to, what tempts me to break the resistance, however, before transferring to what I feel?

Maybe for you to understand how much You did hurt me.... and how much I hurted you too. 

We both have wounded one another. 

 I do not know if You are aware of what I feel at this time. Are You aware of how much my heart breaks and tears overflowing the eyes involuntarily ?

Do You know that you are the reason for my today insomnia? 

Tomorrow is another day and this thing will look the other way for sure. My words here are childish and pitifull and your behavior is not deserving of mine comment. 

But this moment, my present is governed by different rights.  In my body smolders too much emotion, too much anger.

Today I saw how babyish You are and how wrong I was about my own person.

Don't you agree that I am also such a... like You - infantile, childish, immature ? If I deny my own feelings, I do everything out of spite, I can't face the truth, I can't say directly what I really want to say.
What I really feel deep inside.

I'm not stupid, my love, I see certain things.
 I see the way You look at me, the way You lay your hand on my body. I hear like You weave the memories of me into every word, . 

Why are You so one day, and the other turns into a monster? The monster, who was able to hit me? Why did this to me? Was it worth it?

See the madness that envelops You every time when You're next to me. View fantasies which fill our thoughts, see the chemistry that is more than enough.

Why do not You admit it? Why I do not want to admit it? Why am I looking for someone else. Why I'm with someone else.

Why do I feel so much pain when I learn that You are doing the same.

~The worst acts we are shamed only in front of our lovers. ~

And why You can't say me about it ?

To You, I've become cold and indifferent. You know why? Because I'm afraid. I'm closed. I prefer to run away, leave it as is than to change.

Too much already in my life went wrong, too much has changed. I want to be hard. The best. Sick ambition.

I hate You as much as I love. Did I say .. I love You? No, it is not possible.

You know, I heard once that if You do not know what to do, what decisions to take, we should flip a coin. You know why? Because at the time of ejection in the air, brings us to the idea

which side we want more to fall, it is unconscious, but this is a hint of our hearts and we know what to do.
 I just did it.

 Life without You or life with You? ~ I hate everything about You.

Your character annoys me, your style, your manner of speech as well.

You know, the things that annoy us in others are often a reflection of our own faults and  what we do not like in ourselves?

Tell me how You can just write to me in such a way. How can You ask for the impossible.

Tell me how also I can be agree.

Why do I care, If I am in a relationship with someone else? Why do I write to You and not to him.

Why do I see You in front of my eyes. Why YOU! Why.

Please love me ... - I am pitiful, Love Me I'm yelling it to You, a scream in silence.

I want to drown the sorrow in drink now, but pride would not allow me to do this.
PRIDE. yes, she always stopped me. INDEPENDENCE also. HONOR! completely. 

Now I have nothing. In this letter I'm losing it all. Everything I had. For the love that his fulfillment and failure has received.

Your friend.

My favorite quote : 

Hugs for every you
XXX
Paulina

C'est l'amour... Holiday's Photos. Love

Hey Guys !

How's going on ? Me, I'm really fine (maybe because I'm on my holidays) haha :)
Being away from my "present", I can look at everything that had happened from a distance. Understand what I didn't understand before. In this way, things assume a different shape. They are less important. They are trifles. Don't you agree ?

I want to show you some photos that I have taken today. They present my point of view, my perspective.

Like I posted yesterday, I make some fashion's sets on POLYVORE. Here's my new project.
Do you enjoy it ? :)
I called it "C'est l'amour". I wanted to present some french elegance, french love, french romanticism. Love in Paris.  



It's a little bit sentimental subject, but sometimes even me I like to turn back and look at the past.
I've been living in France for some time. My stay there gave me a lot. It taught me have feelings, it taught me what is friendship, what is live.. What is love.
And even if it's over, I do not regret this time.

This project from my site on POLYVORE, show how I see mature love.

At the beginning feeling kindles a gentle flame. Such a  faint, distrustful. It is like a dream. A walk in the desert .. or perhaps the savannah? Then it becomes a stronger feeling , there is passion and passion. Fire. I offered it as a leisurely elegance. Dress light, but decorative. We want to shine, to please him (or her). Pay attention. Be noticed. 
Then suddenly a real love appears. It is like a string of lights. Illuminates us. Wakes us up.
It stimulates in us the depth of feeling. We are saved, calm, loved. 
We find a balance, maturity, love - wide and deep as the abyss of the ocean....
Some words in French / Quelques mots en français ----> 


Bref, pour finir et pour n’être pas si romantique et douce, je voulais vous présenter une image satirique d'amour. Tenez ! :) 

J'adore <3 
XXX

Love is Hot As Ice

Love is a smoke made with the fume of sighs.

      ... said William Shakespeare. And he was totally right. 

         Many people will not ever feel full of love, because they stop in these sighs.
We are afraid to cross the border. Why? But look, all signs indicate that the person has a feeling for you too! Perhaps because the times in which we live so much has changed.

Era of loners, the liberated people.

People who pretend to be someone who they're not.

Now, a kiss does not have the slightest value. It used to be a step wich confirming the desire to create
 a relationship.

For me, the kiss is the most beautiful form of love. More sensual and intimate than any other caress.

Two people in a few moments are combined together. They are one.

So I regret that such a beautiful thing, becomes more and more ... daily and ordinary.

I'm not a prude person and unfortunately me too, I live alone without undue romanticism,
 but sometimes it takes me such a reflection that more and more love is devoid of love.

Little gestures make love, so love is hard to find.

Often unconsciously we repelled her, even if she could  give us so much happiness and fulfillment.
We do not notice love because we want at once great deeds, great events. And because of that, We miss the most beautiful things, though the smallest.

Let's talk about feelings. Marilyn Monroe

Hi there,
It's never easy to talk about our feelings. For me too. But I decided to change it after a little conversation with my.... close friend. He told me that I'm without feelings, that I am not able to show my real emotions. It really touched me, given the fact that it was a person I cared about. I was angry at myself that I can't show what I feel deep inside.

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Others believe that they know us better than we do. And who can know what really is in our head? For whom our hearts are beating ? I didn't want to show my feelings, because I was scared of failure. I preferred do nothing than show my real face. And that was a big mistake. 

We are afraid to suffer, we are afraid to to engage, because we are afraid of lost.
We are terrified, but.. we want only to be loved. But for this, we have to be more open to other people.
Don't regret what you have already done. Regret what you didn't do but you wanted.

This Marilyn Monroe's quote explains perfectly what I think about this situation which has happened recently.

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xxx