The end of one, is the beginning of another

Welcome Everyone,

As you can see on the right side of my blog, I created a FanPage. I hope that you will join it. I'll do the same for you if you'll leave a link in your comment or on this facebook page.
Here's a link :FAN PAGE
Thank you :)

                                                              
I decided to add my other holidays photos. Especially I wanted to show you which kitchen I've tried during this time. 
Tomorrow is a big day. The beginning of new school year. I am happy that I'm gonna see all my classmates but I feel sorry to leave this summer, summertime...

One of my favorites kitchens:

If you are by the sea, you must taste some fish !

And some polish kitchen. Well I must say that it's very fat but you should one day try some traditional polish dishes !  

And of course some sweets (: ---> In addition to all the sweetness of my world "chocolate world... but too fat". I ate REALLY amazing cake ! It called "Cookie's Cake". He was filling in Oreo cookies, currant jam, white cream and white chocolate. 

To finish my holiday's posts, here's the rest of my pics which I'd like to show you :) 

And here's my little dog Maja : 

For the last week I gathered strength for the next school year. I finished this week on my friend's party. It was pretty cool, but it's a pity that almost everyone got drunk so fast.
I spend also a very nice afternoon in a centre of Warsaw in small but great cafe. ---> CAFE PINESKA.
Here's 3 photos I've taken there.

I hope that you had a wonderful holidays. 

New school year, new topics, new photos.

With love,
XXX
Paulina

Magic CONTEST / KONKURS

Hello Everyone !

As I wrote in my last post, I announce a contest ! It will not be like the others contest "giveaway".
It's for EVERYONE. Doesn't matter if you live even 10 000 km or more from me. You still can WIN.

It's a Magic Contest.

I promised that my contest will be associated with my old passion: ASTROLOGY.
I've been learning this for more than 7 years. It gives me a lot of satisfaction and joy.
The most important thing is that everything is very true and it becomes a reality.
I know that many people don't believe in it, but why wouldn't try even for some fun ? :) 

So well, there's some rules :

You can WIN :

1. Full, multi-page portrait astrological and numerological. You will know the truth about yourself, your destiny passions and understand what you did not understand before.

2. Special, personalized tarot divination. Want to know when you will meet your love? Does your friendship survive? Which way you should go? You can ask any question !

3. A individual month horoscope.

BUT ALSO ! you can WIN an Advertise on my blog for the next 3 posts !

SO 4 PERSONS WILL WIN for sure !

RULES:
1. Become a follower of my blog (write in comment : I'm following you as ... via ...)
2. Like my FanPage (write in comment your name and a first letter of your surname  that I could check you out on this fanpage :) ) ---> Fan Page <---
3. Add a contest picture to your blog/post (add a link in your comment to your post/blog) OR add me on BlogRoll. --> It's not obligatory, but you can gain an extra point for this.
4. Share this contest on your facebook page ! --> This is not also obligatory, but it will give you an extra point to win.
5. Leave your contact e-mail in your comment.

~ My contest will run until 29 September 2012 ~

Good Luck ! / Powodzenia ! 

Chocolate world, but.. too fat.

Hello :)

I've just come back from my holidays at the Polish seaside. I've passed a wonderful time there, but I'm also happy that I've returned to Warsaw. During these 2 weeks I have realized some of my dreams !
If you REALLY WANT something, in the end it will happen. Never give up and never stop believing and dreaming. Perhaps for many people, the things that I have had, would not be important, but for me It added a lot of energy and optimism. ( I will write something about it in the next post. You will can win something which correspond at it in the little contest, so don't miss it guys ! )
I took many photos in Tri-City. Today I want to present you just some of them.

~ GDANSK ~

Everyone needs sometimes something sweet.... 
Temptations are stronger than willpower.

Chocolate pancakes with mascarpone cheese with a sauce with cherries on wine.


Milk chocolate with raspberry sorbet with some raspeberries


A classic italian tiramisu and a large cup of latte "Grande Latte"



Here we see (in the depth of photo) also chocolate pancakes but with hot dark chocolate filling and with raspberry mousse 


VERY TRUE :

                                                                            With love

XXX

Paulina

P.S : 

My Dear Friend,
I have learnt a lot for this time. I have learnt to live without You, to do my stuff with no thinking about Your person. Do I feel better ? Well, I feel different. No more sad, like before. I am focused on myself and my future. There's no end and no beginning with You. It's just a continuation, because life goes on. Nothing stops, nothing starts between us. Everything flows like in a river. Am I happy? Well, I am happy because there are my friends around me, there is my family. I am not alone... Physically. But I still miss Your presence next to me. But it's only a longing. We can fight with this feeling. It will not destroy me.
I see a smile on my face. I see the joy. Wish me to stay that way.
Your Friend.

A breath of freshness

Welcome back guys !

8 days of absence is quite a bit.
Sorry about that, but I left Warsaw and I am just in the Tri-City.
For already more than a week, I'm saying hello to Gdynia, Gdansk and Sopot.
Of these three cities I like the most Sopot.
This resort is teeming with life by day and by night.

The day before departure, I had a small party with friends. It was more barbecue party, as it happens in the summer.
We spent a great time, even though the end was a bit... unlucky.
In the evening we went to the shopping mall and I've finished... all... really ALL wet in
the fountain. My friend pushed me there, and for the total, both of us we had problems. Together we were returning home by car with my mom. It was kinda strange, because we're almost 18 and he was really sorry of what he has done to me. And the first time I saw that he really cared and.. it was bizarre.

The situation of the previous post has become different. Maybe better? 

Perhaps worse. I do not know. I only know that because of my holidays  I feel stronger and I rebuilt my vitality. I feel pure.

Maybe it was my goodbye with this friend? Or it was just a begin with him ?

Who really knows ?

You're more "head" than "heart" ?
I told that a head always win... but honestly I don't know the truth answer.

Kiss from Baltic Sea 

xxx

Paulina

This Letter.

My fulifilled and also unfulifilled LOVE,

My Enemy and my Friend, my Lover.

My Everything that You were, that You are and that You will be.

And all that You will NEVER ever be for me...

 ~♥~

Do you see how poetically I'm talking about You ? Like never before. 

Always slanders, always teasing, always profane. And it was for what ? 

Today I want to write You a letter. The letter that will never be read by You, because You're not worth it are You ?

Worth an ounce of words that will flow here. Why I am tempted to, what tempts me to break the resistance, however, before transferring to what I feel?

Maybe for you to understand how much You did hurt me.... and how much I hurted you too. 

We both have wounded one another. 

 I do not know if You are aware of what I feel at this time. Are You aware of how much my heart breaks and tears overflowing the eyes involuntarily ?

Do You know that you are the reason for my today insomnia? 

Tomorrow is another day and this thing will look the other way for sure. My words here are childish and pitifull and your behavior is not deserving of mine comment. 

But this moment, my present is governed by different rights.  In my body smolders too much emotion, too much anger.

Today I saw how babyish You are and how wrong I was about my own person.

Don't you agree that I am also such a... like You - infantile, childish, immature ? If I deny my own feelings, I do everything out of spite, I can't face the truth, I can't say directly what I really want to say.
What I really feel deep inside.

I'm not stupid, my love, I see certain things.
 I see the way You look at me, the way You lay your hand on my body. I hear like You weave the memories of me into every word, . 

Why are You so one day, and the other turns into a monster? The monster, who was able to hit me? Why did this to me? Was it worth it?

See the madness that envelops You every time when You're next to me. View fantasies which fill our thoughts, see the chemistry that is more than enough.

Why do not You admit it? Why I do not want to admit it? Why am I looking for someone else. Why I'm with someone else.

Why do I feel so much pain when I learn that You are doing the same.

~The worst acts we are shamed only in front of our lovers. ~

And why You can't say me about it ?

To You, I've become cold and indifferent. You know why? Because I'm afraid. I'm closed. I prefer to run away, leave it as is than to change.

Too much already in my life went wrong, too much has changed. I want to be hard. The best. Sick ambition.

I hate You as much as I love. Did I say .. I love You? No, it is not possible.

You know, I heard once that if You do not know what to do, what decisions to take, we should flip a coin. You know why? Because at the time of ejection in the air, brings us to the idea

which side we want more to fall, it is unconscious, but this is a hint of our hearts and we know what to do.
 I just did it.

 Life without You or life with You? ~ I hate everything about You.

Your character annoys me, your style, your manner of speech as well.

You know, the things that annoy us in others are often a reflection of our own faults and  what we do not like in ourselves?

Tell me how You can just write to me in such a way. How can You ask for the impossible.

Tell me how also I can be agree.

Why do I care, If I am in a relationship with someone else? Why do I write to You and not to him.

Why do I see You in front of my eyes. Why YOU! Why.

Please love me ... - I am pitiful, Love Me I'm yelling it to You, a scream in silence.

I want to drown the sorrow in drink now, but pride would not allow me to do this.
PRIDE. yes, she always stopped me. INDEPENDENCE also. HONOR! completely. 

Now I have nothing. In this letter I'm losing it all. Everything I had. For the love that his fulfillment and failure has received.

Your friend.

My favorite quote : 

Hugs for every you
XXX
Paulina

Shake, shake, shake your empathy.

Welcome back,

The last days I spent with my friends.
Lots of positive energy gave me an evening shopping trip with my very good girlfriend, in the end we could calmly talk and catch an outlet bargains.

But I also realized how much I do not understand myself and my feelings. Why is it so easy to know how to turn off the empathy for the closest persons?
Why I hurt them so much with my words. My pride and my honor are the prices to pay to be happy and loved by the others. 
When am I gonna learn ? 
For people I don't know, I'm full of kindness. So why the anger and hatred speak trough me for the people who are my whole world?
The answer I will know when  I get to know myself. 

Tomorrow is another day, I hope that thought will be less chaotic, mood will be more positive, and the new action does not run out of energy.

At the end I want show you my next fashion set from http://pauline-marie.polyvore.com/
It's called Summertime. What do you think about it ? I hope you enjoy my work ! :)

Have a wonderful night/day wherever you are guys, you're amazing and I love you so much.

P.S I have for you some preview of my next post. I'm a REALLY BIG FAN of this band.
So here comes your lullaby, you're really own lullaby...  ♥

                                                          ------->  Music that I love   <-------

With love,

Paulina

XXX

Magic Wand is like an Evil

The day was sultry, the sun was going through the sky covered with thick clouds. I was lying on a swing, looking straight ahead. Monotonous preoccupation has brought me quite a pleasure.

Cut off from everyday life, reality.

The headphones helped me accomplish this act, they were howling me down from the surroundings.
In my ears sounded wonderful Lana Del Rey.

...Oh, my God, I feel it in the air 
Telephone wires above all sizzlin' like your stare 

Honey I'm on fire I feel it everywhere 
Nothing scares me anymore ...

In the evening, when the entire sky of Warsaw took on depth and darkness, I went for a walk. It was still stuffy and hot, but the delicate rain was falling gently on my skin. I felt like I was alone, as I could walk forever.
And the rain, like a magic wand cleanse me from all that is evil. This moment didn't take a while, but it was full of magic. 

Vogue, 1958

With love,
XXXPaulina